“I will trust in your unfailing love;
I will rejoice because you have rescued me.”
I mumbled the words over and over, willing my mind to make the connection between letters and meaning. My gut told me this verse was important, but my overly-fatigued mind couldn’t grasp it. I squeezed my eyes shut.
‘Rough week’ didn’t begin to cover the amount of stress currently entrenched between my shoulder blades. Earlier that morning, I’d been scurrying along the path between the library and Forbes, when I caught up to a group of girls walking shoulder-to-shoulder in front of me. They laughed as they made lunch plans, completely oblivious to the road block they posed to those behind them.
“Oh, to be so carefree,” I thought bitterly. I stepped onto the Great Lawn, sacrificing the comfort of my dry shoes, at the exact moment they stopped blocking the whole sidewalk.
I grunted in annoyance. Christianly? No. Proud of myself? Not particularly.
You tell yourself to take one day at a time, that God won’t give you more than you can handle. But let’s face it, there’s a difference between saying God is in control and actually relinquishing your burdens to Him. And I’d been carrying the weight of my worries alone. The squeezing pressure of graduation 2 months away grew heavier every day, and I was no closer to discerning God’s will for the next step of my life. I’d never felt so directionless.
“But seek first his kingdom and his
righteousness, and all these things will be given
to you as well.” -Matthew 6:33
As I opened my eyes to refocus on scripture, I realized that Jesus IS my direction. When I feel lost, I need only to communicate with Him to regain my focal point. As I bowed my head to pray, I tried to focus on opening my heart to fully trusting the Lord- His word, His promises, His wisdom, and His unfailing love. Because God provides more support and resources than we could ever need.
So smile as you lean into him today. He has got you.